I am 29 years old and married to Jonathan. We have two sons, Jack and Ryanie.
I was diagnosed with epilepsy several years ago. Due to the illness I was forced to give up work, my driving licence and any independence I had at the time. I became a very bitter person and felt my life couldn’t get any worse.
We had two sons in the space of twenty months. Due to the fact that my epilepsy was uncontrolled and Jonathan had to work, we moved in with my in-laws from the time both boys were babies. My mother-in-law, Gaynor, has always been with me. I have never taken them out alone for fear of having a fit and the children being left alone. At this point I felt a complete failure as a mother and wife and was not a happy person to live with.
Recently I have been diagnosed with a condition called Lupus SLE which causes a huge amount of pain in all of my joints. It has also given me pulmonary embolism. I was told that this illness could not be cured. At this point in my life I knew I needed help, but from a medical point of view all doors seemed to be closed.
It was then I decided to ask God for help, and not surprisingly He answered me. God answered me by shining a light on the things in my life that He had given me. They were there all along, but I had not seen them. Yes, I have epilepsy, but He has given me a wonderful husband and a family who support me, and He has blessed us with two wonderful sons.
God gave me a wonderful mother-in-law, Gaynor. She has supported me throughout my illness and is my best friend, carer, and more importantly, another Mum to our boys. And finally he gave me St John’s. When Mum and I visited the church we were made to feel part of a huge family where people care and where it is noticed if I didn’t seem myself or hadn’t made it to Church on Sunday morning. This is a fantastic feeling!
I felt after seeing what God had done for me I wanted to confirm my faith and show the Lord I am committed to Him for life and will never go back. In fact, I want to find out more, so I am joining the Alpha course in September. Thank you for your fellowship!